I don't want anything. I'm not seeking attention. I just don't want to feel so alone. So I am sharing this.

I'm not sure how I am going wrong. Hardly anybody is viewing my deviations. Hmm. Nobody has read them realy to think they are good. Maybe I haven't put good tags in. But I have put quite a few.

I haven't put this stuff on here really for a reaction though, I just don't want to feel so alone. I don't tell anybody anything and everyone that thinks they know me, think I am fine and I am getting by.

'Ugh. I am so annoyed. What should I be doing. I don't feel lonely or empty. It's like far more than that. Like full of nothing. More than empty. Pointless and not even here. I don't care but I care way too much also. Oh. Help. Someone. But I don't think anyone can. My insides are dying but I'm still living. I hate myself so much. It's so embarasing. I hate the way I act and think. Everything.'